Watch for despair has followed you out, so fast upon your heels
Your staggering work to grip the earth has left you struck to every nerve
And you returned for whom the strangeness lurks and is a commonness
Said, “Come on down, the wind blows heavy now and you are overrun”
The strength of a woman to walk this yard when at the door you cant explain
How something’s changed—the walls awake with shiftings of a wandering ghost
And the billows rose in asking where you’ll go now, should it all remain?
For what has begun, nothing’s won
But you can learn to cope this way
And now your stretch yearns
To find the breadth of relief
That anyone can just leave and be gone
A solemn mender,
The final hold of release, and when it’s gone I will need it again
I wish for dreams, the glow of lights at sea
I wish too many things
But i will bring that coast what’s left of me
And I will dream
Darling, relent your restless arms
Come along just leave his room
He is strong, his mother’s strong, nothing's wrong, the morning’s
Soon he’ll be home, he’s on his own, he is grown, just let him loose
He is strong, his mother’s strong, nothing’s wrong, he’s just like
You bent to heave a clambering heart
Rattled son, you have been harmed
But you’re strong, your child’s strong, it is wrong, but carry
Through everything, your every part felt much more of hurt before any car the metals tore
You were gone, you have been wronged
Careless the ropes that wore to bone
Calloused my hands that never learned how to let go
Careless to kill the stars, a son
Calloused my will to never forgive what was done
If i could start to heal for once
Those labored eyes where all of my anger is lost
While any fervency is mine
I’ll make this right if I’m less alive when it’s done
credits
from does it feel like i'm not there?,
released March 3, 2023
Written & performed by Esbern Snare
Guest vocals by Rebecca Crumrine
Artwork design by Luke & Meagan Jones
Recorded by Micah Lindstrom at Morgan Horse Studios
Mixed by Ben Mekkes at OWNIT Music
Mastered by Adam Boose at Cauliflower Audio
We’re Esbern Snare, a five-piece from Norfolk, Virginia. We are independently releasing our sophomore album 'does it feel
like i'm not there?' early 2023, and are so honored we get to share it with you. Thank you so much for listening and for your continued support of what we love to do....more
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