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A Woman
04:16
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This falling backwards
This dim-lit room,
Smoke and shroud
Moon that held no face,
And you were the smallest frame I saw
The nurse turns in the sailor's hands
The smallest woman, the smallest man
This floor
I don’t want just once for us
I don’t want just once for us
Where’d you run? It’s just a body that’s lingering on
There wells a water that congeals to your eye and you falter
For somewhere within you is a time when he stood in this place
And felt the loss from a love that had chose to move on
The light spoke the darkest of news to our home
You were gone
I welled up the moment you moved, wrapped in muslin
There you go
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2. |
Macon
03:03
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Would you let go your plights?
Be rid of your mind
And bear the lengths of another back road
For there is no sense in what's bound for Macon tonight
In your mother’s hardest drive
Every terror's a coal respite re-stokes
And it leaps from eyes to the porch when you run out
In a rushing blindly forward just to drag him inside
Hear the mourning in reprise
Start to reel a while
Lose your town
An empty child
A Red Lion house
If honesty finds you out
Shove it down
I want that it be like it was
Was ever there fairness found?
Not once, not once!
I want that it be like it was
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3. |
Keening
04:11
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Some sanity’s last throes
The shadows tend to revolt
And listless the arms swing
As if they have finally broken out from contested control
But I am the same, I am still my own
But I could be wrong
See how he turns for far too long
I’m not my own
And surely your heart steers
for those whom you choose to reign it for
That it should bring you here
to send for the thundering blow and shake through the house it awoke
Laid out on the lawn, I am still my own
But I could be wrong
See how the blurs are so prolonged
I’m not my own
And maybe I’ve gone too soon, maybe I could be better
These stars spinning ‘round the room, and I’m a stone to the driveway
And all you're centered to is a planet shifting loose
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4. |
Shiftings
07:51
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Watch for despair has followed you out, so fast upon your heels
Your staggering work to grip the earth has left you struck to every nerve
And you returned for whom the strangeness lurks and is a commonness
Said, “Come on down, the wind blows heavy now and you are overrun”
The strength of a woman to walk this yard when at the door you cant explain
How something’s changed—the walls awake with shiftings of a wandering ghost
And the billows rose in asking where you’ll go now, should it all remain?
For what has begun, nothing’s won
But you can learn to cope this way
And now your stretch yearns
To find the breadth of relief
That anyone can just leave and be gone
A solemn mender,
The final hold of release, and when it’s gone I will need it again
I wish for dreams, the glow of lights at sea
I wish too many things
But i will bring that coast what’s left of me
And I will dream
Darling, relent your restless arms
Come along just leave his room
He is strong, his mother’s strong, nothing's wrong, the morning’s
Soon he’ll be home, he’s on his own, he is grown, just let him loose
He is strong, his mother’s strong, nothing’s wrong, he’s just like
You bent to heave a clambering heart
Rattled son, you have been harmed
But you’re strong, your child’s strong, it is wrong, but carry
Through everything, your every part felt much more of hurt before any car the metals tore
You were gone, you have been wronged
Careless the ropes that wore to bone
Calloused my hands that never learned how to let go
Careless to kill the stars, a son
Calloused my will to never forgive what was done
If i could start to heal for once
Those labored eyes where all of my anger is lost
While any fervency is mine
I’ll make this right if I’m less alive when it’s done
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5. |
Most of You
05:37
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While you slept, Christmas came
A town moved onward
The dogs took the bedspace
And there you stretch, counting through
The things that keep you from losing today
But down in the hall, the creaks of floors
Your every intent to sing in a dark place
Is anything not leftover of us?
I can pretend, if you can’t return
Tell them most of you
Tell them most of you believes he’s gone
Careful you watch
Come on, lover, lead me to war
Because I’ve had enough of the ways im starting to lose hold of us
There the past’s warm embrace
The avid wanderer returns through the driveway
The trembling latch, shattered plates
No nothing comes back the least like it was
But down in the hall, the creaks of floors
Your every intent to sing in a dark place
Is anything not leftover of us?
I can pretend, if you can’t return
Tell them most of you
Tell them most of you believes he’s gone
Careful you watch
Come on, lover, lead me to war
Because I've had enough of the ways im starting to lose hold
As you’re keeping your head close
To the markings and stains from God only knows
Does it feel like I'm not there?
Does it feel like I'm not there?
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6. |
Joys of Kin
06:01
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That train, the hounds, your core
What bellows out trying to figure out what's before?
With your head against the glass, do you ever tend to wander out and be gone?
Come now the joys of kin, as the warmest sound ever heard in your lasting years
For in my family's glow, I will not be ashamed of us
I've not let go of us, they found a way to burn through the nerve until we've never had
As they come to speak in tones like I have faced the facts, when anymore I,
I still wonder how it will work itself out where we're fine
And the headlights will turn through the snow in the blinds
The light shoots through the marks, like a million stars splintered out with a flash and flurr
To the specks of distant worlds
Such a smallness, life existing now on the glass you watch
But I've not let go of us, they found a way to burn through the nerve until we've never had
As they come to speak in tones like I have faced the facts, when anymore I,
I still wonder how it will work itself out where we're fine, and the headlights will turn through the snow in the blinds
You are never very far off
You are never really gone
You came through my room, yet you were withdrawn
How's your hope?
Do the lights lie unstrung, because it just seems wrong to ever be fine, when the man you returned is the boy you refined?
And all the days that crept into your smile
Withhold from you the severance of time
And rid the town of every vacant sight
To be alone with you one more mile
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7. |
Kicking the Cold Out
03:58
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It's hard to be stable I hope, because I've never been close
And it seems like insane arose to a prominent state
It's like some horse jumped the gate
And it harnessed my leg
Collect me like dust at your table, on the long vacant space
Where you draw out your shapes as you pass through your day
It's simple it seems
And the world may never be
But there's some found release in the floating debris
Don't settle for all you've felt if you've never felt like yourself,
Because I lost that way
What wonder you are
You're kicking the cold out
Unraveling strains
You spin through the yard, but it seems so hard when it's as a stage
Until all of the crowd goes, you dance with your eyes closed,
Just forget that they're there
And some things remain strewn,
A brother of mine, stole
But you're proof that He's fair
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8. |
Orpheus
05:01
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You were some course that offered me miles, a friend in my trials
And her, what she stirred, well, it hurts of worthwhile
What if I stayed until old and I'm swollen in my veins,
where you could trace the man I've been who wore you thin
I love you, the girl of my youth
Don't you wonder how
And the mornings that broke you down, you search for the boy you seldomly found
If your arms could just pull him out, he wants you still
Yeah, I always will
Because I'll miss your soul the moment it goes,
but I should have known just how much I've kept from those I know best
How selfish my crown
Out in their lures for hours, I've had my fill
I took the worms for cowards, but how they kill
I look forward to life as the father of kids
Have you reserved my heart for this?
Could you show me how?
Have I told you my honest doubts?
Well I'm still not sure I'll ever dry out
Because you'll be hard to do without
I'll want you still
Yeah I always will
Because I'll miss your soul the moment it goes and slips through these folds
Well how long will death take to make sense, when none can be found?
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9. |
Lake Redman
05:32
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I woke up this morning after you
I figured out how I would lose
The road takes me farther than I choose
As I go blind to the other man
As he was
See how he never waits for more?
This heart isn't right—it never was
See how it severs every part of who you have loved
It's a long way back to you now
Whatever those waters seem to prove
And what control I had thought I knew
Still all of our failings follow blood right through
Into the veins of a better man
As he was
See how he never waits for more?
This heart isn't right—it never was
See how it severs every part
And still how it goes
But isn't it strange how I can be farther than you want,
Yet be there the same?
You found your sister there at only four years old
At the bottom of the stairs she cracked her head and when she went your father met
The escape of drunkenness
All my tries, dear, to not be the same
When it comes as the heaviest sheets
As the water before I could breath
And you look back—the way that it was
What is progress but means to be lost?
But peace is not absence of strife
Not the slumped walk and egress of war
But it comes as the presence of one
Who has ravaged all distance to me
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10. |
Long Year
03:46
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There from the corner comes a laughter that you cannot contain
Amid all of your own doubts
Your salvation—what it is, what it seems, what it looks like, when
All that enigmatic recourse,
I see it before you
I know how you wake up with all that’s ever happened as all that's never done
It’s been a long year
Yet part of you lingers to wait at the door
As all of us lower the old ways, I hope that you feel light
Yet how do you find your place in this?
How is it normal fumbling with your legs on the same floor?
And all that enigmatic recourse,
I see it before you
I know how you wake up with all that's ever happened as all that's never done
It's been a long year
Yet part of you lingers to wait at the door
The three that were on your mind,
Left you worried all the time
Were there in that picture you had kept by your bed
Left you rendered still without answer
How did it get there?
It feels just like someone saying goodbye
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11. |
No Measures
04:43
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You look to the storm with a shuddering, back from farther days
That you might have been through and yet you lose the path which you came from
When the obvious part you've learned is she will never fold, for your worst has shown
But you bore your mistakes with another, that you offered to always find
You always tried
It comes from the north as a hollowing, the chimes that shook you first
The times when the coffee takes so long to ever be raised to the muscles beneath your face
They left you old somehow, like the kids who had pulled your sleeves and wore you down, as they led you unmade
But you look farther out, to the holds of a state, and I could not get over it
Have I offered an honest life?
I always tried
Somehow all worth comes passing by before you rush outside
To say, "Once, I'd known it—even owned, yet chased for my whole life"
And every ounce was you
So get up
Just get up! I can hear the bells stop and bonds forgot
No measures must you ever take to find me here, still under the arbor
Well you're such a precious sight
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Esbern Snare Norfolk, Virginia
We’re Esbern Snare, a five-piece from Norfolk, Virginia. We are independently releasing our sophomore album 'does it feel like i'm not there?' early 2023, and are so honored we get to share it with you. Thank you so much for listening and for your continued support of what we love to do. ... more
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